Lonely Day

Hello all. Once again it has been quite some time between updates, but you should be used to that by now. Not a whole lot of stuff out of the usual work / play routine, though, so that’s probably why. I usually don’t feel moved to write up anything unless it’s significant. Also, I’m feeling a bit melancholy right now so hopefully that doesn’t bleed through too much.

Yesterday was Father’s Day, and of course I’ve been missing my dad a lot lately with the day approaching. I don’t really want to get into it too much because it’s already a depressing facet of reality to begin with, you know. I was watching my DVD of “Disturbia” (awesome flick by the way) yesterday and heard System of a Down’s song “Lonely Day” in it and it just hit me like a ton of bricks. What is the loneliest day of my life? It was every day that my Dad was in that damned hospital bed – struggling to breathe and dying right in front of me. It was the time immediately following his death. The wake…the funeral…having to leave all my family and come back to Georgia. All of those days are like one giant day of madness to me now. I want to take Father’s Day to remember his greatness, and I do, but it’s hard to not be sad that I can’t celebrate it with him.

It’s all the little things, you know? The little things you take for granted that you don’t give enough reverence to until you can’t do them anymore. I went to see “The Incredible Hulk” (awesome flick as well) on Saturday. The Hulk was my favorite comic book growing up…I subscribed to it for several years even…and I watched the TV show every week. Not being able to call up my Dad and talk to him about how much I enjoyed the flick is hurtful. He loved movies as much as I do, and seeing new movies was something we talked about all the time. Seeing a movie like “The Incredible Hulk”, that reminds me of being a kid again, it just seems unnatural that I can’t talk about it with Dad. But the fucked up thing is that it is natural. Life…death…they’re all part of the same circle. Right?

The circle continues as now I want to take a moment and extend my condolences to Butch Aaron and his family. Butch is in the fantasy football league of which I am the Commissioner, and his father just passed away late last week. I’m sorry, dude, I’m so, so sorry.

More on the circle as I now am happy to extend my congratulations to Burton Meahl and his wife on the birth of their third child, Casey Larkin Meahl. Like I always say, we need all the greatness in the world we can get due to the glut of dumbasses alive. So if Casey is anything like her Dad, then we’re screwed. (LOL!) No, actually, if Casey is anything like her Dad then the world just got a much needed improvement. Congrats, little b!

Life counts…and keeps counting.

Anyway…the one cool thing that’s happened to me lately is that I bought a sweet 42’’ plasma HDTV, along with a new DirecTV HD-DVR receiver. It’s such a sweet-ass-sweet setup, man! I love it. I got it in time to watch the tennis French Open on it, and wow that was so awesome to watch in HD. I’m a huge Ana Ivanovic fan, so I’m happy she won. I absolutely cannot wait for the 2008 NFL season to get underway now. Seeing NFL football in HD in the comfort of my own home is going to kick all the ass there is, all the ass there ever has been, and all the ass there ever will be, in the entire universe. Ah the glory will be immense.

Another cool thing is that I’m down to 240 pounds now. The rate of my weight loss has slowed, but I’m not in any kind of race to lose it or anything. I suspect that it’s because I stopped the working out I was doing a few times a week when my work schedule changed, but I recently figured out a comfortable way to fit it back into my day. Therefore, the weight loss has resumed. In any event, that’s 22 pounds that I’ve lost now since mid-February. Rock the hell on, biatches!

Well, that’s all I have for now, friends. Until next time….

B
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Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
This day that I can’t stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
A day that I’ll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
A day that I’m glad I survived

— “Lonely Day”
System of a Down

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